I’m re-doing my website at the moment. Something I’ve had a barrier to doing for a long time. I’ve cringed for long enough while looking at it, and yet it’s still taken me years to get to the point where I’m committed to re-designing it! So I’ve been reflecting on what the barrier was.
Of course it was an internal barrier and I recognise that I have other internal barriers in my life. It’s a part of being human, right? But the barriers almost always come down to how we think about things.
As part of my efforts to re-write my website and share my message, I’ve been meaning to write, but I’ve not felt inclined to. In fact, it would be more accurate to say I’ve felt a lot of resistance to writing. This has been a pattern especially in writing or sharing my message, but in other contexts too; exercise, giving up coffee, the list could go on. Why is that?
While considering this question, I caught myself sharing with someone (my Attraction Manager as it happens!) how I didn’t want to market my courses like other people through writing; how I didn’t want to promote myself through my writing; or write just for the sake of it, without some sort of deep sense of purpose. And I didn’t want it to be about myself.
This of course begs the question, what did I want?
It took me a while to process the answer to this and the subsequent questions which enabled me to make a significant shift and begin actually enjoying the process of writing again, with a sense of purpose and ease. But the core shift was a structural shift moving away from what I didn’t want to moving towards what I did want. Simple, yet profound.
What I discovered as I explored these questions, was that I wanted to share. I wanted to touch people and share a message from my heart; to move people and inspire them to live a life of freedom, love and boundless possibility.
That’s the truth